“Where My Heart Breaks” by Ivy Sinclair

cover35449-mediumIf there were a course in screwing up your life, Kate Spivey would get an A+.

Trust is in short supply for Kate at the start of the summer before her senior year of college. Her parents sentenced her to spend it under the watchful eye of her aunt at the famous Willoughby Inn. It was further proof that she was a prisoner in, and not the decision maker of, her life. Nothing she does is good enough to prove that she learned from the mistakes of her past.

Almost immediately, Kate finds that her new summer home holds another person who understands the unfairness of her situation better than most. Reed Black has had his own share of tragedy and regrets, but instead of trying to fight his reputation, he embraced it.

Sparks fly between Kate and Reed, but his mixed signals remind Kate that she needs to watch her step. He is one temptation she can’t afford to indulge in, no matter how strong her attraction to him. If she isn’t careful, she’ll lose more than her heart.

I was given this book by the Author, Ivy Sinclair, for an honest review and so I shall deliver.

The Review:

This is the second book I’ve read by Ivy Sinclair, the first one was “Bittersweet Junction”(Read Review Here) and I have to say, “Where My Heart Breaks” had huge shoes to fill to compare to it. Especially since I loved “Bittersweet Junction” so much I featured it in the “Indie Spotlight”.

So that being said,  I thought “Where My Heart Breaks” started off a bit slow and I have to be honest, I had concerns about the book.  But knowing how wonderful an author Ivy Sinclair is, I stayed with it and oh my goodness am I sooo glad I did!! Ivy Sinclair pulled a boxing move…taking it slow, with attention getters here and there…then KAPOW!!  KNOCK OUT!!

Kate is a 21 year old college student who, like so many college kids, lost her way.  She fell in love with an emotionally abusive boyfriend, Trevor, who introduced her to drinking, partying and drugs. She’s lost all her scholarships and she’ll be lucky to be allowed back in.  Her mother, who has always been an overbearing controlling witch, uses this mistake to hold over Kate’s head and to make her feel even worse about herself.  Her mother defines who Kate is with all the bad stuff and overlooks all the amazing things she had done prior to her meeting Trevor.  She blackmails Kate into doing what she says or she won’t pay for her Senior year of college…which of course Kate desperately needs, to stay on a positive, successful path in life.

I got back in the car and started it up. I looked in the rearview mirror. Maybe he felt the vibe about me, the one that started all the chaos to begin with. I was a bad girl . Hadn’t I proved that beyond a shadow of a doubt? I was someone my mother said in my current state wasn’t worth of the time of day.

Nobody should ever be made to feel that way, especially by their mother.  The worst part is, her mom tainted Kate’s Aunt Patrice against her as well, then sends her off to live with Patrice for the summer while her and Kate’s dad travel Europe together.

For awhile I also hated Kate’s best friend Millie. I guess basically I hated all the characters except Kate at first.  If  Ivy Sinclair’s ultimate goal, was to get us to bond with Kate. To feel that loneliness of not having anyone to trust, disliking those you love because they treat you like you’re worthless, like a child and judged you for stupid mistakes…then she completely and utterly succeeded.

Oh my! I’m having a light bulb moment! Looking back as I write this, I can see things so much clearer now and totally get why the beginning pages seemed “a bit slow”…because they DID bring out all those feelings!

Well played Ivy Sinclair…WELL PLAYED!   

Okay, continuing on… I have two words for you.  Reed Black.

His fingers interlaced with mine against the sides of my body and then he brought them up over my head as he pressed fully against me. He was in complete control, and there was no way I could escape him even if I wanted to. He pushed one knee between my legs widening my stance and allowing him to get even closer. His hard, sinewy length seemed contoured to fit my body perfectly like a glove. Although there was a part of me that felt exposed and vulnerable, it was exhilarating at the same time. I knew that I had cracked the lid on a box that I never wanted to close again.

Mmmm, he’s my kind of man. Troubled, dark, sexy and off limits.  He’s also Kate’s kind of man and of course everyone is flipping out about it. But is he who everyone thinks he is?  Is he really just a love ’em and leave ’em kind of guy? Kate intends to find out.

He was probably right. There were a million reasons that I shouldn’t get involved with any guy, but I couldn’t stop thinking about Reed’s mouth all over my body. It had been too long since I felt wanted and desired, and I could see it in his eyes that he wanted me. His hands drifted down to follow the contours of my back, and as I heard his breath hitch, I didn’t want him to stop.

I was the queen of bad ideas and bad decisions. What my parents didn’t fully understand was that I was capable of making them even without the influence of meds or alcohol. But yet, nothing in my whole life felt as right as that moment in Reed’s arms. I would probably have my heart and soul completely crushed by him, but for some reason, it felt entirely worth it. I needed something, or more appropriately someone, to rip the memories of Trevor and the last year and half completely from my mind.

You can feel and see Kate’s lack of self worth.  She was a young girl who fell in love with the wrong guy and she’s the one who pays the ultimate price. I hated seeing her pain. Ultimately there was only one person who could help Kate. Was it Reed? Her Aunt Patrice? Millie? Kate’s Mom?

Guess you have to read the book to find out.  And I highly recommend you do! This book is about making mistakes, dealing with the consequences, finding yourself and finding your way out of the hell hole, we put ourselves in, or allow others to put us in as punishment.  It’s about seeing who is at the top waiting for you to succeed or fail and who is in there with you, to give you a push.

It’s REAL LIFE. That is what Ivy Sinclair gives us with each of her books. She takes real life, then adds in passion, dreams and desires. We become her characters. It’s a special gift that not every author has and I feel so extremely blessed to have the honor of reading what Ivy Sinclair puts down on paper. ♥

Buy this book…seriously.  Don’t miss out on the sexy, wonderful, enlightening ride Ivy Sinclair will take you on.